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As I expected for today N.Day event, all are in quiet and peaceful states ... there is no any jet or even helicopter sound wandering at the air, if previous celebration before sure will be hilarious and a lot of noises will be occured to make me wake up more earlier ( sleeping late lately, studying >.< ) ... Anyway, there is nothing much to do today, sleeping a lot for many hours, doing some small reading then having dinner at night, ughhzzz, life is boring man !!! by the way, arnd 9pm smth, there's a lot of firecrackers played in my area, maybe to celebrate N.Day (haha xp) ... well in arnd a time, we step on to 1st of September, time is flying fast >.<

~ Woosah ~

Hoho, finally my favvy team, Arsenal lose Man.U, 2 - 1, well overall the 2 goals are free and lucky goals for them ... and Arsenal do their job wisely and nicely, what a good effort >.< ... unrealised that tomorrow will be M'sia 52 independent years, so fast the time passed but the ceremony I think will be decreased and quite not hilarious before due to H1N1, so all must be careful o k ^^ Haiix, what a boring day today o, theres not many activities to do besides listening to music and play some games, exam almost coming lor ... Scared scared and nervous >.<

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well today is quite a fine day for me though ... seeking for nth but my feel seems to be desperately in a no mood situation, feeling that my life is always in black and white colour, nothing changes ... today went to audition a while, found a fren who just actively talking and nice too, playing a few rnds then off for a dinner occasion ... tonite my favvy team, Arsenal versus Man.U (my very dislike team), wondering which team will win cause both have its advantages on their team, I can say that agile team vs skilled team =) ... well back to the centre point, hoping someone can help me to reduce those sad feeling and share prbs together but the prb is to find who to talk too? ...

~ If I Become A Memory ~

Tired, striving hard to stay awake, thinking of you,
I'm so afraid to be at ease and sleep,
This is my dream, my heartbeat wont listen and will just stop,
Listening to my breath, breaking like waves,
The more beautiful it is, the more uneasy I become,
What can I still cherish, even my own pulse is too difficult to control.

If I become a memory and I will withdraw from this life,
You remain startled and weeping my ice cold body yet I'm unable to embrace you,
And to let you, who I deeply love, travel lonelysome through the sea of the people,
I will hate myself for being so heartless.

If I become a memory, and in the end, I wasn't that lucky,
No chance to get the white hair or lead you hobbling, or even watch the glow of the sunset,
One day after a long time, you will recover from your grief,
If someone can love you forever, let him be with you together, I won't blame you at all.

Happiness, when it will end?
Which moment is the last moment to be together?
I want to tightly to hold you that in my life, you are the one for me to be with together and forever.

If I become a memory, I'm most afraid of being too disappointing,
Stubbornly hanging in the air to occupy your heart from every inch of it,
Having you, the one who still loves me painfully bear the loss,
This isn't fair, please do your best, to forget me ...

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Haiix, what a ugly day today ... everything not going as i expected, meaning that it not running smoothly ... well feeling a bit complicated , somehow i cant say what it is, juz it rotted in my heart so deeply and cannot be taken out ... 6 more days to go for my exam and yet i feel that i din study although i got take a lot of attention in it, i think i missing something but what is it? by the way, im still miss and think about a person that is important to me since long time ago but things went wrong and stray away from me ... Ughzz, everyday went till 5am in the morning for study but not really 100% to absorb all over from it, wanna scream at the hill !!!

~ Feeling Unstable ~

Well well, another cloudy and rainy wednesday for today, feeling so cold and yet dizzy a lot ... ughzz, life still remained like this ... Do i making a mistake this time? Will I repeat the same mistake again and regret again? zzz, life is unpredictable, everything is based on feeling and intuition on urself, any decision that have been make cannot be back as normal ... I also wondering is there any way to forget those past and sad things, just only a happy memories in my brain ... anyway life still goes on and need to be go on through, can someone ever give a piece of good advice to me? So confused arr T.T

~ A Brand New Life ~

As the title stated above, well its something to be happy about but depends on what situation you at and you are ... hmm after considering some sort of things and doing a nice decision, i tink thats all for previous things before ( well dun wan mention it, sad sad story XD ) ... after releasing it, i found out that not everything is according to ur expectation by juz sitting and relaxing but to work hard on it to make it possible to happen ^^ a burden is finaly released, and yet i realized many things that in front of you should be appreciate it more and more ... *Time Is Ticking* exam on 3 Sept, need jiayous o >.<

~ Old Friend ~

Today weather's quite nice and good, seems windy and cloudy ... Long time din have this feeling oledi, hoping everyday will have such occasion to go on ... Guess what? Juz now manage to find an old friend of mine, how lucky am i ... she is a quite good and a nice gal too, long time din find her since last year (i think), well juz a simple chat and she left ler, only at msn ... wondering when she will on9 again? In addition, she quite "chio", if she din have a bf, im sure go and court her (jkjk, haha) ... well as i counting again, 9 more days to go for my exam, needa go to college to study and do all necessary revision X . X

~ Haru Haru, 하루 하루 ( Day By Day ) ~

Well its has been another day for what is happening today to myself ... what i have been expecting is turning to be true at all, what i can say is there's no luck with me oledi, everything seems to be leaving me one by one and day by day ... its not in my control anymore since from a day where it started, well im juz blinded by some darkness that cover my surrounding ... by the way, today im doing nth but to stay at home doing some clothes washing ( washing machine ) and play online games a while ... hmm 11 days to my final exam and yet im still "la sai" (in cantonese) to do revision and all supplies needed, haiix, still have a long road to go on ...

~ Friend ~

Hmm as the time passed by, everything get to change to something unsual, maybe you cant adapt it in a short time but soon u will getting used to it >.<, well today i manage to know a friend from singapore, she quite cute and always like to laugh and smile ... afterall, can say that she is a well being person and friendly =) ... soon the exam will be coming and of cuz i still "steady" with all those study thingy, saying i can handle the exam but not in 100%, saying I cant is not totally cant handle ... mind, heart, brain all so confused by this time, hoping a remedy to cure all my "diseases"

~ Audition ~

Hoho ~ well im currently playing a online game, AuditionSEA ... so whoever have take a look on my blog and u all got play, rmb tell and add me as friend k ^^ Hmm for today thingy, there is nothing more or less I can do it, just doing my own routine thingy, eat - drink - rest - sleep ... Sometimes in some online games, you can make a few good friends inside ... they really can share your problems together and make a funny jokes all the time, well its hard to find these friends nowadays T.T ... anyway i really appreciate the way they treat and help me, i would hope i can help them if manage too >.< finally, cant wait to back hometown after exam end !!!

~ Complicated & Confused ~

Hmm for today activities, i got a photo taking session for this sem ... everybody seems to be happy and delighted (even just a small session, just our group involved) ... by the way, i feel tired and somemore not very in a mood today, hoping the exam will be fast over and have a restful sleep everyday, haha =) ... "Two lives, two hearts joined together in friendship united forever in love" well this quote i find it in a website and i found that it really have a deeper and meaningful inside it, somehow i cant explain it to you all because its complicated ... Arghzz, it really confused day by day for somehow i cant manage my feeling into a better mood, what to do?

~ A Mix Feeling ~

Well well, 16 more days or 2 weeks and 2 days im gonna have my final exam started at 3 September ... more or less, i cant concentrate on the studying, even on college library with a peaceful moment T.T ... well along with myself i still got a lot of problems to handle it but without someone to help, i cant do it ... Have you ever wondering you see ur friends or even lover is making a mistake from the beginning and you tried to advise and help him/her but he/she will choose not to believe u, considering u know each other for a year or 2 but they prefer choose to believe other people more than yourself ... haiix, what the earth is going on now? everything seems to be blinded by a surrounding darkness, where is the truth without a light >.< ?

~ Failure ~

Well well well well, monday can be said as a sick day where they call it as "monday blue" ... as for me, im really agree with it ... today i face a great failure in myself where no people can help me to solve it, only me myself ... as u can see, before we accept a success in our hand, we will face a failure, this failure will help us to rebuild a strong positive mind thinking to make us be more hardworking on something that u wan to do it ... well of course, im not sure what im writing now and doing too, juz my heart is so confused and im lost in a dark universe ... What to do ???

~ Not Really Happy ~

Well today is a cloudy day which makes me cloudy too, as in a word, i can say that im rly moody ... somehow i cant accept some fact. Example, a thing is in front of you that is in a short distance but somehow you not manage to reach it, that is really a .... haiix, dunno how to describe the words with the feeling i bring this day ... juz to release some feel at here maybe can make me feel better ... somehow i wanna scream loudly !!!

1st Blogging Post !!!

Hoho and haha for today fine morning on 9 August 2009 ... Well a new blog start by today where I also dont know what to write, just keep in touch and may God bless you all, will start to fulfill this blog as a entertaint blog to all of ya >.<