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- Decision Making Skill -

2010-12-12T00:49:00.002+08:00

Hmm how I'm gonna start my very first sentence? ... Well well first of all, tonight is a very hot weather for me .. I can sense the body temperature increase second by second ! Anyway, it's nothing less compared to the afternoon weather, more hot than the night - later must have a cold bath 1st >.<

Actually, what is the meaning at my post title? It's nothing more, just my decision making skill has been upgraded to a certain level .. after judging the statement from certain angle, I finally realize and will be insist my decision till the last - actually is my problems ~

Nothing to be explain for tonight ~ just have a good night and sweet dreams
Story End !

- Previously On Feeling -

2010-12-10T15:40:00.002+08:00

It has been 2 days for me since I start to write my adventurous life again .. these few days is just a tiredness arousing me every day and every second but what to do? Exam is getting nearer - really around the corner, without great effort I surely can't do it .. Anyway, let's just hope and pray for myself to get a flying colour results >.<

I have been thinking much for a thing these few days .. well indeed sad enough for me but why I will be sad too much? Perhaps is just my way-less mind thinking or something else? Sighs .. can somebody tell me what is going on now? Really lost my way now, I feeling I'm in a jungle without compass searching the way back home !

It's not in my control anyway, what I can do is just think and feel what the feeling I had now .. indeed suffer but that's all I can do now - praying for another cheerful day by tomorrow ~ I wanna fly now .....

- Safe -

2010-12-07T20:03:00.002+08:00

"If you've lost your way,
I will keep you safe.
Well open up all your world inside.
So you come alive tonight,
I will keep you safe."

A chorus quote from one of the Westlife songs, Safe - my favorite english boy band all the time .. their songs really suits the mood of many people and yet, every lyrics have it own meaning - meaningful and nice to listen >.<, keep repeating for many times in a day already, cant stop listening to it ~ haha

Hmm .. looking back on the activities today, I just spent a little time doing my assignment or do my revision - mostly I'm dreaming and imagining a lot, really proud to say that I'm the person who will think so much for something and even guess what will happened till I'm getting headache - Absolutely no way to change it as this is my pure and special characteristic ~

Keep feeling tired for everyday, maybe my moody mood cover all of my ........ well just fill in the blanks ~ haha, I can be moody without any reason - anywhere and anytime =.=", somehow I feel isolated by many peoples, keep overcome with this kind of feeling or do I really think so much again? No one can answer me ..

*No matter how hard the arms are stretched,
There is still distance between us.

Holiday !

2010-12-06T22:03:00.002+08:00

Well well tomorrow is a public holiday which mean I can rest for a day .. When i reach the handout assignment today, I really damn happy and relax, really wanna fly around without any worries and problems - that is really my wish after all >.< Play a while of basketball games with my classmates .. really feel like, well i can smell freedom, haha ~ just a while but glad to have it ~

And for my mood today, not so good yet not too bad .. the mood keep mixing around and I don't know is happy or what - however I still can breathe till today, that's all in my mind today =.=" .. in other hand, i know there are still 4 weeks left to go before final exam - not really in mood now, gonna study the other day ~

And sometimes when i bored, I keep thinking a word of "love" .. what is the real meaning and function behind that? keep seeing my friends moody because of love - argue, fight and etc .. really wanna help but it's beyond my boundaries and of course it is complicated as ever ~

Hmm I really wanna have a talk or even SMS or MSN will do, really feel bored now .. who can I find actually? Who can be my good and effective listener at all, sometimes feedback can be proved useful .. haix, anyway I also lazy to mention about it, and since this my only place to express my feeling - 真实的感觉梦境般遥远 .......

Finally ..

2010-12-06T00:11:00.002+08:00

Well in around 12 hours time or more, everything will just be fine enough for my group of people to free .. Cause of this assignment, many of my friends feel stress and temper fluctuating around, that is a really serious case but what to do? Trust me, it has been a nightmare experience .. so with the case just now, one of my friend just scolded from lower to the peak of the mountain, haix .. what a sad case!

Anyway, what surprised and shocked me the most is one of my little emo friend in my class .. suddenly she has a temper, well quite fierce at all .. I don't know if I'm scolded by her but I don't care that, still is my good friend at all - I understand her feeling that time so I would be glad if I really can help her - just hope she will cheer up and happy everyday >.<

And for nothing, I'm rushing my assignment, editing around and check if got mistakes .. my mood is quite normal anyway, final exam is coming soon - the mood still in thinking mode, this time I'm gonna die 99 ~ "Not all scars show, not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't always see, the pain someone feels." ............

Headache ..

2010-12-04T18:27:00.002+08:00

Such a cold and windy day today .. body feeling very weak as I have headache, flu and lung pain ~ luckily i got medicine to stay fit for today, phew ~ sick is getting on my nerves now, cant totally recover, seems hanging in the middle of the recovery process, so tired .. energy is being consumed to recover the sick, really damn blur now x.x

Hmm now in the middle of doing assignment, mind keeps fluctuating around in my head, just spin and spin around .. I'm the person who will keep thinking many things, keep worry and think till I tired, and I'm kinda jealous of something now ~ just a friend of mine and not too close, it just might be silly for me to feel like this but this is what am I feeling now ~ no offense on that ..

Sometimes thinking of "escape" from this world, well it just the meaning of going travel all around the world alone .. that is my dream since I'm a small kids .. I often ask my grandma, "what will be at the outside of this world?", she just answer me, close your eyes and imagine the happy things in your life now, although I don't know what is the meaning but I'm very happy with the answer, stick in my mind always .. well she is the best grandma i had followed by my grandpa, hope both of them always healthy and have last long life for me to bring them go around the world >.<

In other hand, the term "love" and "like" - I still can't differentiate it properly till today .. I want to hear the truth but who can tell me the most accurate and clear explanation? Jam in the middle of the thought now .. feeling want to drunk now, forget all those sad and unreliable things, haix ~ really good luck this time.

-Just A Dream-

2010-12-03T22:19:00.002+08:00

What a weird feeling for me today .. last night just play a small gambling at my friend's house ~ win 20 bucks and well quite happy with it >.< ~ anyway, still got assignment to rush and few test to go on, hopefully i can pass all the work and test too x.x

My feeling not too good nor too bad, just remain same and normal like yesterday but it's not getting well no matter how it done ~ Just can say good luck to myself, someone help me please ..

That's all for today, watch movie with friends and have dinner too .. feeling not really well now, story ends ........

...

2010-12-02T23:16:00.003+08:00

Well well finally this week is over for me .. i can feel the comfortable sensation winding up my body, phew ~ Seems like a long time I didn't get this feel, what to say? Hmm quite happy and relax just for now ..

Just a minute ago, I have a look at my friend's blog and she stated that she fall down and now the butt is feeling pain, really wanna see her expression that time ~ would be funny enough xD, well she is a quite special girl, just hope her always be happy and smile always ~

Back to my topic, let see .. what have I done today? theres nothing special I guess, just eat lunch with a group of friends, chit chat around and study alone - haha ~ anyway, my heart still feels the same, something really stuck within it and I can't mention it in here or anyone, just a secret that deep buried in my heart ~ just hoping for something that will not happened ... haiz !

Without any regret, I just can feel the same all the way, everyday .. 29 days remaining >.<

~ Blur ~

2010-12-01T21:08:00.002+08:00

Today is the day i totally down down down for sure .. a sense of stress and fearful feeling just overcome me and OMG, what the heck wrong with me ~ anyway, life is still life - there is no point to argue and judge everything now - kind of survival for this cruel world, happy or not, you involved till now .. exam and assignment are something you cant avoid for your college life, what to do? Without proper mood, I really cant study and concentrate .. I need adrenaline but I'm afraid that cant be give to me easily, something that is hard to achieve but I don't think I can get it .. believe it or not, it just a dream for me and I still stuck at there .. "thanks for letting me know but I will wait for eternity"

~ Back For A While ~

2010-11-24T16:23:00.002+08:00

Hmm well it has been a time for me to back and write to this blog again .. this blog is especially for me to write all the things i would like to say it out ~ so sorry if nothing here can amaze u and thats why it's called a blog ! haha .. and for today event, i took my exam just now and guess what, i'm totally blur and ready to fail, lolx ~ anyway, hope things will get better >.< .. feeling awkward and weird somehow for today, hmm i wouldn't say out much for today .. save it for another day perhaps, when the time comes ~

Wrong !!!

2009-10-29T02:40:00.002+08:00

Well finally back to blogging bout myself and other things that happen long time ago ... recently feel really tired, dunno what to do to reduce it, having many prbs running through my head now ... luckily still got many friends in college who still active and wiling to support me at whatever situation needed, should be appreciate it much >.< ... Wanna go to have a tour in many places such as Singapore for the 1st then go to some pulau to have a nice breeze air, I can imagine since from those day I arrived at KL ... Well when got time???

~ Back Home ~

2009-09-21T03:53:00.002+08:00

Well its finally reach a day I can back to meet my family for no sight - seeing for 4 months i guess ... Recently doing nothing at home, just do some reading about Russell Lee writing and play some games at PSP, well what I can say is totally boring ... Anyway back to hometown is sure a happy day for me where I can meet some of my old friends, do the usual activities and many many more, life at KL seems changed me a lot from many aspects ... Saying these would really make me a foolish guy I think, so whoever still in SDK, do remember to tell me k ~ lets have some fun together ^^

~ Finally ~

2009-09-14T21:42:00.002+08:00

Well today that is 14th September 2009, my last paper for my exam ~ feeling so happy and yet I'm too free now, what to do? Just wasting time at home or go shopping? Go work at MCD? ... By the way, what I'm hoping is I can back to my hometown to see my father once again, I haven't see him for around 4 years, what a joke if you really think otherwise ... Somehow I feeling not good by now, my heart seems can't let go somethings that really make me regret on what I have done before, sorry if I do it badly or even worst ... Sighs

~ 9 / 9 / 09 ~

2009-09-09T23:00:00.003+08:00

Wow, what a day for today? It a nice date for those couple or those lovers, 9 is the luckiest number for those couple who wish to stay forever till the end of the time ... Well I wish Happy 9 for all those couples in these world, happy to see them together ^^ Well time passing fast, tomorrow is my 2nd last exam paper, 14 Sept I have my own freedom, back to hometown to meet my father who has long time didn't back to home ... missing him and my mother very much with my younger bro and sis, I wondering hows they look like now, can't wait the time fly to back ... Anyway, hoping all my exam subject pass with wonderful colours ... Miss my Family ^^

~ 하루 하루 ~

2009-09-08T22:12:00.003+08:00

Leave,
Yeah, finally I realize that I am nothing without you,
I was so wrong, forgive me.

My broken heart like a wave,
My shaken heart like a wind,
My heart vanished like smoke,
It can't be removed like a tattoo,
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in,
Only dusts are piled up in my mind.

Yeah, I thought I wouldn't be able to live even one day without you,
But somehow I managed to live on longer than I thought,
You don't answer anything as I cry out "I miss you"
I hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless.

What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can't get close nor try to talk to you,
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times.

Don't look back and leave,
Don't find me again and live on,
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories,
I can bear it in some way,
I can stand in some way,
You should be happy if you are like this,
I become dull day by day,
Oh girl I cry,
You're my all, say goodbye.

If we pass by each other on the street,
Act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to,
If you keep thinking about our past memories,
I might go look for you secretly.

Always be happy with him, so I won't ever get a different mind,
Even smallest regret won't be left out ever,
Please live well as if I should feel jealous,
You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud,
You should always smile like that as if nothing happened.

I hope your heart fees relieved,
Please forget about me and live on,
Those tears will dry completely as time passes by,
It would've hurt less if we didn't meet at all,
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever,
I pray for you.

Oh girl I cry,
You're my all, say goodbye,
Oh my love don't lie,
You're my heart, say goodbye...

~ The Fishes ~

2009-09-07T22:40:00.003+08:00

Water flow through the rivers,
As it flows through my eyes, they say Pisces dreamer has lived other lives,
There's something more there, I can see it clear, not something you hold in your hand,
The end of the circle, it ends with me in eternity,
The poet and the dreamer creating pisces flow,
There is world that we possess, that all of you cant know.

Beyond just what you can see lies darkness,
My life, it changes with everything around me,
Sometimes I need to get out of here,
If you are soul in need, if you need compassion, I will stand up like a wall right by your side,
I can tell what others can't tell and yes, I can read your mind.

Pisces belong in another world at another time,
Neptune rules my hours, devoted by your side,
The heart of the Pisces soul live through the time, through time.

Zzz

2009-09-06T19:34:00.003+08:00

Somehow I feeling so confused, soul is flying nowhere, mind is putting anywhere, one word - complicated ... Anyway tomorrow is my maths exam and I feeling nothing at all, am I ready to take this exam? Perhaps its not the way I can take it but I will take it seriously and pay more attention, these few days I really cant study at all, problems go in and out, cant find a way to dispel it from my mind ~ Feeling suffer and painful, I really don't know what to do ... Time passing so slow, problems occured everyday, pain getting stronger everyday ... ZZZ

Happy Ending?

2009-09-05T22:47:00.002+08:00

Lolx, wondering why my title is recognized as happy ending ... well its seems that a problem has reached the end of it, feeling sad and happy at the same time and yet the feeling of guilty and regret still exist in my heart forever, I cant't replace this feel no matter how I do because in my life, I'm making a teribble mistake but its all over now ... In our human life, making decision is one the major act to be done in order to satisfy or to make an important decision for the process to be taking on, well what to say is think carefully before you move on to next step, a single mistake maybe overhelmed your decision thus ruined all the things you done before ... I'm the 1st one, ughzzz ...

~ SAD SAD SAD !!! ~

2009-09-04T21:44:00.003+08:00

Ughzz ~ dunno what happen to me this few days I think ... what a damn ugly day for me, feeling stupid, lonely and bla bla bla ... Sometimes it is really tired to do what is we need to do, need to think in both way and find a best and appopriate situation and then make a wise decision to make sure that you will not regret on what u decide ... So any people tell me what is wise, the meaning of it? Feel so tired by everyday, study till late cause of to score in exam yet to avoid some problems that occured, divide the attention I guess it ... Somehow I can forget what is happening before and after, you gain happiness when dealing with something that you like and goes on smoothly and in other side, you gain sadness when you dealing with some hardly decision and how the people treat you in your life ... One word, tired ~

~ A Person Without Direction ~

2009-09-03T19:06:00.002+08:00

What an ugly day today ... well having my first sub exam that is English, overall I manage to do it nicely and neatly but the ideas to write the essay seems have been in incomplete and confusing ways to do it but its over and hope that I can get a good grades for it xp ... however, feeling damn sad now, seems that everything is going to leave me and here where I started to be alone, am I doing a wrong thing? ... I guess no one can help me, just to let the time to recover my heart and my feelings, feeling like wanna quit for sure ............

~ Inconsolable ~

2009-09-02T21:10:00.002+08:00

Well well, the time seems have come for me to enter the "battlefield" once more ... However, I feel nothing seems as there will be nothing bad happen on me, just to say that, im feeling - less? If you really ask me about this question, somehow I cant answer you, just it seems to be a weird day for me ... Tomorrow is my 1st exam and it is English, well this sub really need more understanding on grammar and the tense that you use, just be careful ... My mood now seems to be in nowhere, flying around like there's no tomorrow, don't know how to desribe this feeling, so ugly afterall T.T ... Yet I realized that i missing something from someone, hoping ---- will wish me with motivational spirits and I'm really glad to hear that but I think ---- is busy nowadays, accompany someone that I really quite dislike afterall, well perhaps the destiny and fate is not witth you and you cannot blame ppl for all of that, just appreciate what you have now and in the future it might bring you a good opinion and mind thinking >.<

~ Cold As Frozen Ice ~

2009-09-01T21:39:00.002+08:00

Well today is really a cooling yet quite frozen day for me, cold enough for me to have flu (unlucky T.T ) ... Not only today but I feel cold day by day since the last time before, embrace and heat not exist anymore for me, what I'm looking and imagining at surrounding is just a ice around and some frozen rocky, no more glow of sunset or beautiful flowers exist ... what a teribble day for me yet I don't know what to do and how to do it ... anyway, waiting and be patiening is a process for us to train stability (if you know what i mean) but I afraid that time will not come for having a nice and sweet time together ... To let go is somehow a better way and if you think carefully, you should know more >.< ...

@ . @

2009-08-31T21:22:00.002+08:00

As I expected for today N.Day event, all are in quiet and peaceful states ... there is no any jet or even helicopter sound wandering at the air, if previous celebration before sure will be hilarious and a lot of noises will be occured to make me wake up more earlier ( sleeping late lately, studying >.< ) ... Anyway, there is nothing much to do today, sleeping a lot for many hours, doing some small reading then having dinner at night, ughhzzz, life is boring man !!! by the way, arnd 9pm smth, there's a lot of firecrackers played in my area, maybe to celebrate N.Day (haha xp) ... well in arnd a time, we step on to 1st of September, time is flying fast >.<

~ Woosah ~

2009-08-30T21:09:00.003+08:00

Hoho, finally my favvy team, Arsenal lose Man.U, 2 - 1, well overall the 2 goals are free and lucky goals for them ... and Arsenal do their job wisely and nicely, what a good effort >.< ... unrealised that tomorrow will be M'sia 52 independent years, so fast the time passed but the ceremony I think will be decreased and quite not hilarious before due to H1N1, so all must be careful o k ^^ Haiix, what a boring day today o, theres not many activities to do besides listening to music and play some games, exam almost coming lor ... Scared scared and nervous >.<

> . >

2009-08-29T21:31:00.003+08:00

well today is quite a fine day for me though ... seeking for nth but my feel seems to be desperately in a no mood situation, feeling that my life is always in black and white colour, nothing changes ... today went to audition a while, found a fren who just actively talking and nice too, playing a few rnds then off for a dinner occasion ... tonite my favvy team, Arsenal versus Man.U (my very dislike team), wondering which team will win cause both have its advantages on their team, I can say that agile team vs skilled team =) ... well back to the centre point, hoping someone can help me to reduce those sad feeling and share prbs together but the prb is to find who to talk too? ...

~ If I Become A Memory ~

2009-08-28T21:06:00.002+08:00

Tired, striving hard to stay awake, thinking of you,
I'm so afraid to be at ease and sleep,
This is my dream, my heartbeat wont listen and will just stop,
Listening to my breath, breaking like waves,
The more beautiful it is, the more uneasy I become,
What can I still cherish, even my own pulse is too difficult to control.

If I become a memory and I will withdraw from this life,
You remain startled and weeping my ice cold body yet I'm unable to embrace you,
And to let you, who I deeply love, travel lonelysome through the sea of the people,
I will hate myself for being so heartless.

If I become a memory, and in the end, I wasn't that lucky,
No chance to get the white hair or lead you hobbling, or even watch the glow of the sunset,
One day after a long time, you will recover from your grief,
If someone can love you forever, let him be with you together, I won't blame you at all.

Happiness, when it will end?
Which moment is the last moment to be together?
I want to tightly to hold you that in my life, you are the one for me to be with together and forever.

If I become a memory, I'm most afraid of being too disappointing,
Stubbornly hanging in the air to occupy your heart from every inch of it,
Having you, the one who still loves me painfully bear the loss,
This isn't fair, please do your best, to forget me ...

=.="

2009-08-27T19:35:00.004+08:00

Haiix, what a ugly day today ... everything not going as i expected, meaning that it not running smoothly ... well feeling a bit complicated , somehow i cant say what it is, juz it rotted in my heart so deeply and cannot be taken out ... 6 more days to go for my exam and yet i feel that i din study although i got take a lot of attention in it, i think i missing something but what is it? by the way, im still miss and think about a person that is important to me since long time ago but things went wrong and stray away from me ... Ughzz, everyday went till 5am in the morning for study but not really 100% to absorb all over from it, wanna scream at the hill !!!

~ Feeling Unstable ~

2009-08-26T20:09:00.003+08:00

Well well, another cloudy and rainy wednesday for today, feeling so cold and yet dizzy a lot ... ughzz, life still remained like this ... Do i making a mistake this time? Will I repeat the same mistake again and regret again? zzz, life is unpredictable, everything is based on feeling and intuition on urself, any decision that have been make cannot be back as normal ... I also wondering is there any way to forget those past and sad things, just only a happy memories in my brain ... anyway life still goes on and need to be go on through, can someone ever give a piece of good advice to me? So confused arr T.T

~ A Brand New Life ~

2009-08-25T21:53:00.003+08:00

As the title stated above, well its something to be happy about but depends on what situation you at and you are ... hmm after considering some sort of things and doing a nice decision, i tink thats all for previous things before ( well dun wan mention it, sad sad story XD ) ... after releasing it, i found out that not everything is according to ur expectation by juz sitting and relaxing but to work hard on it to make it possible to happen ^^ a burden is finaly released, and yet i realized many things that in front of you should be appreciate it more and more ... *Time Is Ticking* exam on 3 Sept, need jiayous o >.<

~ Old Friend ~

2009-08-24T23:39:00.005+08:00

Today weather's quite nice and good, seems windy and cloudy ... Long time din have this feeling oledi, hoping everyday will have such occasion to go on ... Guess what? Juz now manage to find an old friend of mine, how lucky am i ... she is a quite good and a nice gal too, long time din find her since last year (i think), well juz a simple chat and she left ler, only at msn ... wondering when she will on9 again? In addition, she quite "chio", if she din have a bf, im sure go and court her (jkjk, haha) ... well as i counting again, 9 more days to go for my exam, needa go to college to study and do all necessary revision X . X

~ Haru Haru, 하루 하루 ( Day By Day ) ~

2009-08-23T19:03:00.005+08:00

Well its has been another day for what is happening today to myself ... what i have been expecting is turning to be true at all, what i can say is there's no luck with me oledi, everything seems to be leaving me one by one and day by day ... its not in my control anymore since from a day where it started, well im juz blinded by some darkness that cover my surrounding ... by the way, today im doing nth but to stay at home doing some clothes washing ( washing machine ) and play online games a while ... hmm 11 days to my final exam and yet im still "la sai" (in cantonese) to do revision and all supplies needed, haiix, still have a long road to go on ...

~ Friend ~

2009-08-21T22:58:00.003+08:00

Hmm as the time passed by, everything get to change to something unsual, maybe you cant adapt it in a short time but soon u will getting used to it >.<, well today i manage to know a friend from singapore, she quite cute and always like to laugh and smile ... afterall, can say that she is a well being person and friendly =) ... soon the exam will be coming and of cuz i still "steady" with all those study thingy, saying i can handle the exam but not in 100%, saying I cant is not totally cant handle ... mind, heart, brain all so confused by this time, hoping a remedy to cure all my "diseases"

~ Audition ~

2009-08-20T22:41:00.003+08:00

Hoho ~ well im currently playing a online game, AuditionSEA ... so whoever have take a look on my blog and u all got play, rmb tell and add me as friend k ^^ Hmm for today thingy, there is nothing more or less I can do it, just doing my own routine thingy, eat - drink - rest - sleep ... Sometimes in some online games, you can make a few good friends inside ... they really can share your problems together and make a funny jokes all the time, well its hard to find these friends nowadays T.T ... anyway i really appreciate the way they treat and help me, i would hope i can help them if manage too >.< finally, cant wait to back hometown after exam end !!!

~ Complicated & Confused ~

2009-08-19T22:40:00.004+08:00

Hmm for today activities, i got a photo taking session for this sem ... everybody seems to be happy and delighted (even just a small session, just our group involved) ... by the way, i feel tired and somemore not very in a mood today, hoping the exam will be fast over and have a restful sleep everyday, haha =) ... "Two lives, two hearts joined together in friendship united forever in love" well this quote i find it in a website and i found that it really have a deeper and meaningful inside it, somehow i cant explain it to you all because its complicated ... Arghzz, it really confused day by day for somehow i cant manage my feeling into a better mood, what to do?

~ A Mix Feeling ~

2009-08-18T23:27:00.002+08:00

Well well, 16 more days or 2 weeks and 2 days im gonna have my final exam started at 3 September ... more or less, i cant concentrate on the studying, even on college library with a peaceful moment T.T ... well along with myself i still got a lot of problems to handle it but without someone to help, i cant do it ... Have you ever wondering you see ur friends or even lover is making a mistake from the beginning and you tried to advise and help him/her but he/she will choose not to believe u, considering u know each other for a year or 2 but they prefer choose to believe other people more than yourself ... haiix, what the earth is going on now? everything seems to be blinded by a surrounding darkness, where is the truth without a light >.< ?

~ Failure ~

2009-08-17T23:41:00.002+08:00

Well well well well, monday can be said as a sick day where they call it as "monday blue" ... as for me, im really agree with it ... today i face a great failure in myself where no people can help me to solve it, only me myself ... as u can see, before we accept a success in our hand, we will face a failure, this failure will help us to rebuild a strong positive mind thinking to make us be more hardworking on something that u wan to do it ... well of course, im not sure what im writing now and doing too, juz my heart is so confused and im lost in a dark universe ... What to do ???

~ Not Really Happy ~

2009-08-16T23:06:00.004+08:00

Well today is a cloudy day which makes me cloudy too, as in a word, i can say that im rly moody ... somehow i cant accept some fact. Example, a thing is in front of you that is in a short distance but somehow you not manage to reach it, that is really a .... haiix, dunno how to describe the words with the feeling i bring this day ... juz to release some feel at here maybe can make me feel better ... somehow i wanna scream loudly !!!

1st Blogging Post !!!

2009-08-09T00:01:00.003+08:00

Hoho and haha for today fine morning on 9 August 2009 ... Well a new blog start by today where I also dont know what to write, just keep in touch and may God bless you all, will start to fulfill this blog as a entertaint blog to all of ya >.<