Thursday, October 29, 2009

Wrong !!!

Well finally back to blogging bout myself and other things that happen long time ago ... recently feel really tired, dunno what to do to reduce it, having many prbs running through my head now ... luckily still got many friends in college who still active and wiling to support me at whatever situation needed, should be appreciate it much >.< ... Wanna go to have a tour in many places such as Singapore for the 1st then go to some pulau to have a nice breeze air, I can imagine since from those day I arrived at KL ... Well when got time???

Monday, September 21, 2009

~ Back Home ~

Well its finally reach a day I can back to meet my family for no sight - seeing for 4 months i guess ... Recently doing nothing at home, just do some reading about Russell Lee writing and play some games at PSP, well what I can say is totally boring ... Anyway back to hometown is sure a happy day for me where I can meet some of my old friends, do the usual activities and many many more, life at KL seems changed me a lot from many aspects ... Saying these would really make me a foolish guy I think, so whoever still in SDK, do remember to tell me k ~ lets have some fun together ^^

Monday, September 14, 2009

~ Finally ~

Well today that is 14th September 2009, my last paper for my exam ~ feeling so happy and yet I'm too free now, what to do? Just wasting time at home or go shopping? Go work at MCD? ... By the way, what I'm hoping is I can back to my hometown to see my father once again, I haven't see him for around 4 years, what a joke if you really think otherwise ... Somehow I feeling not good by now, my heart seems can't let go somethings that really make me regret on what I have done before, sorry if I do it badly or even worst ... Sighs

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

~ 9 / 9 / 09 ~

Wow, what a day for today? It a nice date for those couple or those lovers, 9 is the luckiest number for those couple who wish to stay forever till the end of the time ... Well I wish Happy 9 for all those couples in these world, happy to see them together ^^ Well time passing fast, tomorrow is my 2nd last exam paper, 14 Sept I have my own freedom, back to hometown to meet my father who has long time didn't back to home ... missing him and my mother very much with my younger bro and sis, I wondering hows they look like now, can't wait the time fly to back ... Anyway, hoping all my exam subject pass with wonderful colours ... Miss my Family ^^

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

~ 하루 하루 ~

Leave,
Yeah, finally I realize that I am nothing without you,
I was so wrong, forgive me.

My broken heart like a wave,
My shaken heart like a wind,
My heart vanished like smoke,
It can't be removed like a tattoo,
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in,
Only dusts are piled up in my mind.

Yeah, I thought I wouldn't be able to live even one day without you,
But somehow I managed to live on longer than I thought,
You don't answer anything as I cry out "I miss you"
I hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless.

What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can't get close nor try to talk to you,
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times.

Don't look back and leave,
Don't find me again and live on,
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories,
I can bear it in some way,
I can stand in some way,
You should be happy if you are like this,
I become dull day by day,
Oh girl I cry,
You're my all, say goodbye.

If we pass by each other on the street,
Act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to,
If you keep thinking about our past memories,
I might go look for you secretly.

Always be happy with him, so I won't ever get a different mind,
Even smallest regret won't be left out ever,
Please live well as if I should feel jealous,
You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud,
You should always smile like that as if nothing happened.

I hope your heart fees relieved,
Please forget about me and live on,
Those tears will dry completely as time passes by,
It would've hurt less if we didn't meet at all,
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever,
I pray for you.

Oh girl I cry,
You're my all, say goodbye,
Oh my love don't lie,
You're my heart, say goodbye...

Monday, September 7, 2009

~ The Fishes ~

Water flow through the rivers,
As it flows through my eyes, they say Pisces dreamer has lived other lives,
There's something more there, I can see it clear, not something you hold in your hand,
The end of the circle, it ends with me in eternity,
The poet and the dreamer creating pisces flow,
There is world that we possess, that all of you cant know.

Beyond just what you can see lies darkness,
My life, it changes with everything around me,
Sometimes I need to get out of here,
If you are soul in need, if you need compassion, I will stand up like a wall right by your side,
I can tell what others can't tell and yes, I can read your mind.

Pisces belong in another world at another time,
Neptune rules my hours, devoted by your side,
The heart of the Pisces soul live through the time, through time.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Zzz

Somehow I feeling so confused, soul is flying nowhere, mind is putting anywhere, one word - complicated ... Anyway tomorrow is my maths exam and I feeling nothing at all, am I ready to take this exam? Perhaps its not the way I can take it but I will take it seriously and pay more attention, these few days I really cant study at all, problems go in and out, cant find a way to dispel it from my mind ~ Feeling suffer and painful, I really don't know what to do ... Time passing so slow, problems occured everyday, pain getting stronger everyday ... ZZZ

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Happy Ending?

Lolx, wondering why my title is recognized as happy ending ... well its seems that a problem has reached the end of it, feeling sad and happy at the same time and yet the feeling of guilty and regret still exist in my heart forever, I cant't replace this feel no matter how I do because in my life, I'm making a teribble mistake but its all over now ... In our human life, making decision is one the major act to be done in order to satisfy or to make an important decision for the process to be taking on, well what to say is think carefully before you move on to next step, a single mistake maybe overhelmed your decision thus ruined all the things you done before ... I'm the 1st one, ughzzz ...

Friday, September 4, 2009

~ SAD SAD SAD !!! ~

Ughzz ~ dunno what happen to me this few days I think ... what a damn ugly day for me, feeling stupid, lonely and bla bla bla ... Sometimes it is really tired to do what is we need to do, need to think in both way and find a best and appopriate situation and then make a wise decision to make sure that you will not regret on what u decide ... So any people tell me what is wise, the meaning of it? Feel so tired by everyday, study till late cause of to score in exam yet to avoid some problems that occured, divide the attention I guess it ... Somehow I can forget what is happening before and after, you gain happiness when dealing with something that you like and goes on smoothly and in other side, you gain sadness when you dealing with some hardly decision and how the people treat you in your life ... One word, tired ~

Thursday, September 3, 2009

~ A Person Without Direction ~

What an ugly day today ... well having my first sub exam that is English, overall I manage to do it nicely and neatly but the ideas to write the essay seems have been in incomplete and confusing ways to do it but its over and hope that I can get a good grades for it xp ... however, feeling damn sad now, seems that everything is going to leave me and here where I started to be alone, am I doing a wrong thing? ... I guess no one can help me, just to let the time to recover my heart and my feelings, feeling like wanna quit for sure ............

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

~ Inconsolable ~

Well well, the time seems have come for me to enter the "battlefield" once more ... However, I feel nothing seems as there will be nothing bad happen on me, just to say that, im feeling - less? If you really ask me about this question, somehow I cant answer you, just it seems to be a weird day for me ... Tomorrow is my 1st exam and it is English, well this sub really need more understanding on grammar and the tense that you use, just be careful ... My mood now seems to be in nowhere, flying around like there's no tomorrow, don't know how to desribe this feeling, so ugly afterall T.T ... Yet I realized that i missing something from someone, hoping ---- will wish me with motivational spirits and I'm really glad to hear that but I think ---- is busy nowadays, accompany someone that I really quite dislike afterall, well perhaps the destiny and fate is not witth you and you cannot blame ppl for all of that, just appreciate what you have now and in the future it might bring you a good opinion and mind thinking >.<

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

~ Cold As Frozen Ice ~

Well today is really a cooling yet quite frozen day for me, cold enough for me to have flu (unlucky T.T ) ... Not only today but I feel cold day by day since the last time before, embrace and heat not exist anymore for me, what I'm looking and imagining at surrounding is just a ice around and some frozen rocky, no more glow of sunset or beautiful flowers exist ... what a teribble day for me yet I don't know what to do and how to do it ... anyway, waiting and be patiening is a process for us to train stability (if you know what i mean) but I afraid that time will not come for having a nice and sweet time together ... To let go is somehow a better way and if you think carefully, you should know more >.< ...

Monday, August 31, 2009

@ . @

As I expected for today N.Day event, all are in quiet and peaceful states ... there is no any jet or even helicopter sound wandering at the air, if previous celebration before sure will be hilarious and a lot of noises will be occured to make me wake up more earlier ( sleeping late lately, studying >.< ) ... Anyway, there is nothing much to do today, sleeping a lot for many hours, doing some small reading then having dinner at night, ughhzzz, life is boring man !!! by the way, arnd 9pm smth, there's a lot of firecrackers played in my area, maybe to celebrate N.Day (haha xp) ... well in arnd a time, we step on to 1st of September, time is flying fast >.<

Sunday, August 30, 2009

~ Woosah ~

Hoho, finally my favvy team, Arsenal lose Man.U, 2 - 1, well overall the 2 goals are free and lucky goals for them ... and Arsenal do their job wisely and nicely, what a good effort >.< ... unrealised that tomorrow will be M'sia 52 independent years, so fast the time passed but the ceremony I think will be decreased and quite not hilarious before due to H1N1, so all must be careful o k ^^ Haiix, what a boring day today o, theres not many activities to do besides listening to music and play some games, exam almost coming lor ... Scared scared and nervous >.<

Saturday, August 29, 2009

> . >

well today is quite a fine day for me though ... seeking for nth but my feel seems to be desperately in a no mood situation, feeling that my life is always in black and white colour, nothing changes ... today went to audition a while, found a fren who just actively talking and nice too, playing a few rnds then off for a dinner occasion ... tonite my favvy team, Arsenal versus Man.U (my very dislike team), wondering which team will win cause both have its advantages on their team, I can say that agile team vs skilled team =) ... well back to the centre point, hoping someone can help me to reduce those sad feeling and share prbs together but the prb is to find who to talk too? ...

Friday, August 28, 2009

~ If I Become A Memory ~

Tired, striving hard to stay awake, thinking of you,
I'm so afraid to be at ease and sleep,
This is my dream, my heartbeat wont listen and will just stop,
Listening to my breath, breaking like waves,
The more beautiful it is, the more uneasy I become,
What can I still cherish, even my own pulse is too difficult to control.

If I become a memory and I will withdraw from this life,
You remain startled and weeping my ice cold body yet I'm unable to embrace you,
And to let you, who I deeply love, travel lonelysome through the sea of the people,
I will hate myself for being so heartless.

If I become a memory, and in the end, I wasn't that lucky,
No chance to get the white hair or lead you hobbling, or even watch the glow of the sunset,
One day after a long time, you will recover from your grief,
If someone can love you forever, let him be with you together, I won't blame you at all.

Happiness, when it will end?
Which moment is the last moment to be together?
I want to tightly to hold you that in my life, you are the one for me to be with together and forever.

If I become a memory, I'm most afraid of being too disappointing,
Stubbornly hanging in the air to occupy your heart from every inch of it,
Having you, the one who still loves me painfully bear the loss,
This isn't fair, please do your best, to forget me ...

Thursday, August 27, 2009

=.="

Haiix, what a ugly day today ... everything not going as i expected, meaning that it not running smoothly ... well feeling a bit complicated , somehow i cant say what it is, juz it rotted in my heart so deeply and cannot be taken out ... 6 more days to go for my exam and yet i feel that i din study although i got take a lot of attention in it, i think i missing something but what is it? by the way, im still miss and think about a person that is important to me since long time ago but things went wrong and stray away from me ... Ughzz, everyday went till 5am in the morning for study but not really 100% to absorb all over from it, wanna scream at the hill !!!

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

~ Feeling Unstable ~

Well well, another cloudy and rainy wednesday for today, feeling so cold and yet dizzy a lot ... ughzz, life still remained like this ... Do i making a mistake this time? Will I repeat the same mistake again and regret again? zzz, life is unpredictable, everything is based on feeling and intuition on urself, any decision that have been make cannot be back as normal ... I also wondering is there any way to forget those past and sad things, just only a happy memories in my brain ... anyway life still goes on and need to be go on through, can someone ever give a piece of good advice to me? So confused arr T.T

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

~ A Brand New Life ~

As the title stated above, well its something to be happy about but depends on what situation you at and you are ... hmm after considering some sort of things and doing a nice decision, i tink thats all for previous things before ( well dun wan mention it, sad sad story XD ) ... after releasing it, i found out that not everything is according to ur expectation by juz sitting and relaxing but to work hard on it to make it possible to happen ^^ a burden is finaly released, and yet i realized many things that in front of you should be appreciate it more and more ... *Time Is Ticking* exam on 3 Sept, need jiayous o >.<

Monday, August 24, 2009

~ Old Friend ~

Today weather's quite nice and good, seems windy and cloudy ... Long time din have this feeling oledi, hoping everyday will have such occasion to go on ... Guess what? Juz now manage to find an old friend of mine, how lucky am i ... she is a quite good and a nice gal too, long time din find her since last year (i think), well juz a simple chat and she left ler, only at msn ... wondering when she will on9 again? In addition, she quite "chio", if she din have a bf, im sure go and court her (jkjk, haha) ... well as i counting again, 9 more days to go for my exam, needa go to college to study and do all necessary revision X . X

Sunday, August 23, 2009

~ Haru Haru, 하루 하루 ( Day By Day ) ~

Well its has been another day for what is happening today to myself ... what i have been expecting is turning to be true at all, what i can say is there's no luck with me oledi, everything seems to be leaving me one by one and day by day ... its not in my control anymore since from a day where it started, well im juz blinded by some darkness that cover my surrounding ... by the way, today im doing nth but to stay at home doing some clothes washing ( washing machine ) and play online games a while ... hmm 11 days to my final exam and yet im still "la sai" (in cantonese) to do revision and all supplies needed, haiix, still have a long road to go on ...

Friday, August 21, 2009

~ Friend ~

Hmm as the time passed by, everything get to change to something unsual, maybe you cant adapt it in a short time but soon u will getting used to it >.<, well today i manage to know a friend from singapore, she quite cute and always like to laugh and smile ... afterall, can say that she is a well being person and friendly =) ... soon the exam will be coming and of cuz i still "steady" with all those study thingy, saying i can handle the exam but not in 100%, saying I cant is not totally cant handle ... mind, heart, brain all so confused by this time, hoping a remedy to cure all my "diseases"

Thursday, August 20, 2009

~ Audition ~

Hoho ~ well im currently playing a online game, AuditionSEA ... so whoever have take a look on my blog and u all got play, rmb tell and add me as friend k ^^ Hmm for today thingy, there is nothing more or less I can do it, just doing my own routine thingy, eat - drink - rest - sleep ... Sometimes in some online games, you can make a few good friends inside ... they really can share your problems together and make a funny jokes all the time, well its hard to find these friends nowadays T.T ... anyway i really appreciate the way they treat and help me, i would hope i can help them if manage too >.< finally, cant wait to back hometown after exam end !!!

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

~ Complicated & Confused ~

Hmm for today activities, i got a photo taking session for this sem ... everybody seems to be happy and delighted (even just a small session, just our group involved) ... by the way, i feel tired and somemore not very in a mood today, hoping the exam will be fast over and have a restful sleep everyday, haha =) ... "Two lives, two hearts joined together in friendship united forever in love" well this quote i find it in a website and i found that it really have a deeper and meaningful inside it, somehow i cant explain it to you all because its complicated ... Arghzz, it really confused day by day for somehow i cant manage my feeling into a better mood, what to do?

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

~ A Mix Feeling ~

Well well, 16 more days or 2 weeks and 2 days im gonna have my final exam started at 3 September ... more or less, i cant concentrate on the studying, even on college library with a peaceful moment T.T ... well along with myself i still got a lot of problems to handle it but without someone to help, i cant do it ... Have you ever wondering you see ur friends or even lover is making a mistake from the beginning and you tried to advise and help him/her but he/she will choose not to believe u, considering u know each other for a year or 2 but they prefer choose to believe other people more than yourself ... haiix, what the earth is going on now? everything seems to be blinded by a surrounding darkness, where is the truth without a light >.< ?

Monday, August 17, 2009

~ Failure ~

Well well well well, monday can be said as a sick day where they call it as "monday blue" ... as for me, im really agree with it ... today i face a great failure in myself where no people can help me to solve it, only me myself ... as u can see, before we accept a success in our hand, we will face a failure, this failure will help us to rebuild a strong positive mind thinking to make us be more hardworking on something that u wan to do it ... well of course, im not sure what im writing now and doing too, juz my heart is so confused and im lost in a dark universe ... What to do ???

Sunday, August 16, 2009

~ Not Really Happy ~

Well today is a cloudy day which makes me cloudy too, as in a word, i can say that im rly moody ... somehow i cant accept some fact. Example, a thing is in front of you that is in a short distance but somehow you not manage to reach it, that is really a .... haiix, dunno how to describe the words with the feeling i bring this day ... juz to release some feel at here maybe can make me feel better ... somehow i wanna scream loudly !!!

Sunday, August 9, 2009

1st Blogging Post !!!

Hoho and haha for today fine morning on 9 August 2009 ... Well a new blog start by today where I also dont know what to write, just keep in touch and may God bless you all, will start to fulfill this blog as a entertaint blog to all of ya >.<