~ Back Home ~

Well its finally reach a day I can back to meet my family for no sight - seeing for 4 months i guess ... Recently doing nothing at home, just do some reading about Russell Lee writing and play some games at PSP, well what I can say is totally boring ... Anyway back to hometown is sure a happy day for me where I can meet some of my old friends, do the usual activities and many many more, life at KL seems changed me a lot from many aspects ... Saying these would really make me a foolish guy I think, so whoever still in SDK, do remember to tell me k ~ lets have some fun together ^^

~ Finally ~

Well today that is 14th September 2009, my last paper for my exam ~ feeling so happy and yet I'm too free now, what to do? Just wasting time at home or go shopping? Go work at MCD? ... By the way, what I'm hoping is I can back to my hometown to see my father once again, I haven't see him for around 4 years, what a joke if you really think otherwise ... Somehow I feeling not good by now, my heart seems can't let go somethings that really make me regret on what I have done before, sorry if I do it badly or even worst ... Sighs

~ 9 / 9 / 09 ~

Wow, what a day for today? It a nice date for those couple or those lovers, 9 is the luckiest number for those couple who wish to stay forever till the end of the time ... Well I wish Happy 9 for all those couples in these world, happy to see them together ^^ Well time passing fast, tomorrow is my 2nd last exam paper, 14 Sept I have my own freedom, back to hometown to meet my father who has long time didn't back to home ... missing him and my mother very much with my younger bro and sis, I wondering hows they look like now, can't wait the time fly to back ... Anyway, hoping all my exam subject pass with wonderful colours ... Miss my Family ^^

~ 하루 하루 ~

Leave,
Yeah, finally I realize that I am nothing without you,
I was so wrong, forgive me.

My broken heart like a wave,
My shaken heart like a wind,
My heart vanished like smoke,
It can't be removed like a tattoo,
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in,
Only dusts are piled up in my mind.

Yeah, I thought I wouldn't be able to live even one day without you,
But somehow I managed to live on longer than I thought,
You don't answer anything as I cry out "I miss you"
I hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless.

What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can't get close nor try to talk to you,
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times.

Don't look back and leave,
Don't find me again and live on,
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories,
I can bear it in some way,
I can stand in some way,
You should be happy if you are like this,
I become dull day by day,
Oh girl I cry,
You're my all, say goodbye.

If we pass by each other on the street,
Act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to,
If you keep thinking about our past memories,
I might go look for you secretly.

Always be happy with him, so I won't ever get a different mind,
Even smallest regret won't be left out ever,
Please live well as if I should feel jealous,
You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud,
You should always smile like that as if nothing happened.

I hope your heart fees relieved,
Please forget about me and live on,
Those tears will dry completely as time passes by,
It would've hurt less if we didn't meet at all,
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever,
I pray for you.

Oh girl I cry,
You're my all, say goodbye,
Oh my love don't lie,
You're my heart, say goodbye...

~ The Fishes ~

Water flow through the rivers,
As it flows through my eyes, they say Pisces dreamer has lived other lives,
There's something more there, I can see it clear, not something you hold in your hand,
The end of the circle, it ends with me in eternity,
The poet and the dreamer creating pisces flow,
There is world that we possess, that all of you cant know.

Beyond just what you can see lies darkness,
My life, it changes with everything around me,
Sometimes I need to get out of here,
If you are soul in need, if you need compassion, I will stand up like a wall right by your side,
I can tell what others can't tell and yes, I can read your mind.

Pisces belong in another world at another time,
Neptune rules my hours, devoted by your side,
The heart of the Pisces soul live through the time, through time.

Zzz

Somehow I feeling so confused, soul is flying nowhere, mind is putting anywhere, one word - complicated ... Anyway tomorrow is my maths exam and I feeling nothing at all, am I ready to take this exam? Perhaps its not the way I can take it but I will take it seriously and pay more attention, these few days I really cant study at all, problems go in and out, cant find a way to dispel it from my mind ~ Feeling suffer and painful, I really don't know what to do ... Time passing so slow, problems occured everyday, pain getting stronger everyday ... ZZZ

Happy Ending?

Lolx, wondering why my title is recognized as happy ending ... well its seems that a problem has reached the end of it, feeling sad and happy at the same time and yet the feeling of guilty and regret still exist in my heart forever, I cant't replace this feel no matter how I do because in my life, I'm making a teribble mistake but its all over now ... In our human life, making decision is one the major act to be done in order to satisfy or to make an important decision for the process to be taking on, well what to say is think carefully before you move on to next step, a single mistake maybe overhelmed your decision thus ruined all the things you done before ... I'm the 1st one, ughzzz ...

~ SAD SAD SAD !!! ~

Ughzz ~ dunno what happen to me this few days I think ... what a damn ugly day for me, feeling stupid, lonely and bla bla bla ... Sometimes it is really tired to do what is we need to do, need to think in both way and find a best and appopriate situation and then make a wise decision to make sure that you will not regret on what u decide ... So any people tell me what is wise, the meaning of it? Feel so tired by everyday, study till late cause of to score in exam yet to avoid some problems that occured, divide the attention I guess it ... Somehow I can forget what is happening before and after, you gain happiness when dealing with something that you like and goes on smoothly and in other side, you gain sadness when you dealing with some hardly decision and how the people treat you in your life ... One word, tired ~

~ A Person Without Direction ~

What an ugly day today ... well having my first sub exam that is English, overall I manage to do it nicely and neatly but the ideas to write the essay seems have been in incomplete and confusing ways to do it but its over and hope that I can get a good grades for it xp ... however, feeling damn sad now, seems that everything is going to leave me and here where I started to be alone, am I doing a wrong thing? ... I guess no one can help me, just to let the time to recover my heart and my feelings, feeling like wanna quit for sure ............

~ Inconsolable ~

Well well, the time seems have come for me to enter the "battlefield" once more ... However, I feel nothing seems as there will be nothing bad happen on me, just to say that, im feeling - less? If you really ask me about this question, somehow I cant answer you, just it seems to be a weird day for me ... Tomorrow is my 1st exam and it is English, well this sub really need more understanding on grammar and the tense that you use, just be careful ... My mood now seems to be in nowhere, flying around like there's no tomorrow, don't know how to desribe this feeling, so ugly afterall T.T ... Yet I realized that i missing something from someone, hoping ---- will wish me with motivational spirits and I'm really glad to hear that but I think ---- is busy nowadays, accompany someone that I really quite dislike afterall, well perhaps the destiny and fate is not witth you and you cannot blame ppl for all of that, just appreciate what you have now and in the future it might bring you a good opinion and mind thinking >.<

~ Cold As Frozen Ice ~

Well today is really a cooling yet quite frozen day for me, cold enough for me to have flu (unlucky T.T ) ... Not only today but I feel cold day by day since the last time before, embrace and heat not exist anymore for me, what I'm looking and imagining at surrounding is just a ice around and some frozen rocky, no more glow of sunset or beautiful flowers exist ... what a teribble day for me yet I don't know what to do and how to do it ... anyway, waiting and be patiening is a process for us to train stability (if you know what i mean) but I afraid that time will not come for having a nice and sweet time together ... To let go is somehow a better way and if you think carefully, you should know more >.< ...