- Decision Making Skill -

Hmm how I'm gonna start my very first sentence? ... Well well first of all, tonight is a very hot weather for me .. I can sense the body temperature increase second by second ! Anyway, it's nothing less compared to the afternoon weather, more hot than the night - later must have a cold bath 1st >.<

Actually, what is the meaning at my post title? It's nothing more, just my decision making skill has been upgraded to a certain level .. after judging the statement from certain angle, I finally realize and will be insist my decision till the last - actually is my problems ~

Nothing to be explain for tonight ~ just have a good night and sweet dreams
Story End !

- Previously On Feeling -

It has been 2 days for me since I start to write my adventurous life again .. these few days is just a tiredness arousing me every day and every second but what to do? Exam is getting nearer - really around the corner, without great effort I surely can't do it .. Anyway, let's just hope and pray for myself to get a flying colour results >.<

I have been thinking much for a thing these few days .. well indeed sad enough for me but why I will be sad too much? Perhaps is just my way-less mind thinking or something else? Sighs .. can somebody tell me what is going on now? Really lost my way now, I feeling I'm in a jungle without compass searching the way back home !

It's not in my control anyway, what I can do is just think and feel what the feeling I had now .. indeed suffer but that's all I can do now - praying for another cheerful day by tomorrow ~ I wanna fly now .....

- Safe -

"If you've lost your way,
I will keep you safe.
Well open up all your world inside.
So you come alive tonight,
I will keep you safe."

A chorus quote from one of the Westlife songs, Safe - my favorite english boy band all the time .. their songs really suits the mood of many people and yet, every lyrics have it own meaning - meaningful and nice to listen >.<, keep repeating for many times in a day already, cant stop listening to it ~ haha

Hmm .. looking back on the activities today, I just spent a little time doing my assignment or do my revision - mostly I'm dreaming and imagining a lot, really proud to say that I'm the person who will think so much for something and even guess what will happened till I'm getting headache - Absolutely no way to change it as this is my pure and special characteristic ~

Keep feeling tired for everyday, maybe my moody mood cover all of my ........ well just fill in the blanks ~ haha, I can be moody without any reason - anywhere and anytime =.=", somehow I feel isolated by many peoples, keep overcome with this kind of feeling or do I really think so much again? No one can answer me ..

*No matter how hard the arms are stretched,
There is still distance between us.

Holiday !

Well well tomorrow is a public holiday which mean I can rest for a day .. When i reach the handout assignment today, I really damn happy and relax, really wanna fly around without any worries and problems - that is really my wish after all >.< Play a while of basketball games with my classmates .. really feel like, well i can smell freedom, haha ~ just a while but glad to have it ~

And for my mood today, not so good yet not too bad .. the mood keep mixing around and I don't know is happy or what - however I still can breathe till today, that's all in my mind today =.=" .. in other hand, i know there are still 4 weeks left to go before final exam - not really in mood now, gonna study the other day ~

And sometimes when i bored, I keep thinking a word of "love" .. what is the real meaning and function behind that? keep seeing my friends moody because of love - argue, fight and etc .. really wanna help but it's beyond my boundaries and of course it is complicated as ever ~

Hmm I really wanna have a talk or even SMS or MSN will do, really feel bored now .. who can I find actually? Who can be my good and effective listener at all, sometimes feedback can be proved useful .. haix, anyway I also lazy to mention about it, and since this my only place to express my feeling - 真实的感觉 梦境般遥远 .......

Finally ..

Well in around 12 hours time or more, everything will just be fine enough for my group of people to free .. Cause of this assignment, many of my friends feel stress and temper fluctuating around, that is a really serious case but what to do? Trust me, it has been a nightmare experience .. so with the case just now, one of my friend just scolded from lower to the peak of the mountain, haix .. what a sad case!

Anyway, what surprised and shocked me the most is one of my little emo friend in my class .. suddenly she has a temper, well quite fierce at all .. I don't know if I'm scolded by her but I don't care that, still is my good friend at all - I understand her feeling that time so I would be glad if I really can help her - just hope she will cheer up and happy everyday >.<

And for nothing, I'm rushing my assignment, editing around and check if got mistakes .. my mood is quite normal anyway, final exam is coming soon - the mood still in thinking mode, this time I'm gonna die 99 ~ "Not all scars show, not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't always see, the pain someone feels." ............

Headache ..

Such a cold and windy day today .. body feeling very weak as I have headache, flu and lung pain ~ luckily i got medicine to stay fit for today, phew ~ sick is getting on my nerves now, cant totally recover, seems hanging in the middle of the recovery process, so tired .. energy is being consumed to recover the sick, really damn blur now x.x

Hmm now in the middle of doing assignment, mind keeps fluctuating around in my head, just spin and spin around .. I'm the person who will keep thinking many things, keep worry and think till I tired, and I'm kinda jealous of something now ~ just a friend of mine and not too close, it just might be silly for me to feel like this but this is what am I feeling now ~ no offense on that ..

Sometimes thinking of "escape" from this world, well it just the meaning of going travel all around the world alone .. that is my dream since I'm a small kids .. I often ask my grandma, "what will be at the outside of this world?", she just answer me, close your eyes and imagine the happy things in your life now, although I don't know what is the meaning but I'm very happy with the answer, stick in my mind always .. well she is the best grandma i had followed by my grandpa, hope both of them always healthy and have last long life for me to bring them go around the world >.<

In other hand, the term "love" and "like" - I still can't differentiate it properly till today .. I want to hear the truth but who can tell me the most accurate and clear explanation? Jam in the middle of the thought now .. feeling want to drunk now, forget all those sad and unreliable things, haix ~ really good luck this time.

-Just A Dream-

What a weird feeling for me today .. last night just play a small gambling at my friend's house ~ win 20 bucks and well quite happy with it >.< ~ anyway, still got assignment to rush and few test to go on, hopefully i can pass all the work and test too x.x

My feeling not too good nor too bad, just remain same and normal like yesterday but it's not getting well no matter how it done ~ Just can say good luck to myself, someone help me please ..

That's all for today, watch movie with friends and have dinner too .. feeling not really well now, story ends ........